Cartoon Crushes?

[Mr. Marshmallow]

I was planning on writing this yesterday but things came up. Reading Cass's deep words about Frankie and valentine's day kind of put me up to this, so I apologize for those who don't like long ass posts but I got something pretty long ass to say. As I have gotten older and I'm now about to graduate from college with my bachelor's degree in the spring, I still have yet to find a girlfriend.

I have tried plenty of methods and tactics to meet girls, and none of have them have really worked out like I planned. My age doesn't really force me to want to rush but merely the notion of wanting a girlfriend. Anyway, the more I think about it, the more I realize that despite how utterly weird and "insane" this may sound, but I find myself more and more drawn to toon females then ever.

I think one of the reasons I don't really feel 100% bad about not having a girlfriend is knowing that while they may not be real, I find my heart filled with such joy seeing wonderful animated woman who inspire and encourage me. I think of the celebrities and pretty women we have out in society today, and I can't help but think how they could learn SO much from a single toon.

They have qualities that are admirable, beautiful, and downright sexy. They give me something to believe in and while I know I will never find a girl like a toon since they are designed to be so nice and wonderful, I find myself happier thinking about what I would do on a date with toon girls then I would with an actual person. I find myself thinking about that a lot lately.

I imagine if I was dating say Sailor Jupiter from Sailor Moon or Mahoro Ando from the anime series Mahoromatic, I imagine what I would wear to impress them, where to take them, to open the door and pull their seats out to be polite to them, and I can just imagine seeing them blush so adorably and being so kind and caring I'd feel like I'd be walking on air or cloud 9.

I also think about what they would say to me because in a weird way, I think about how they would think of me or speak about me. I usually don't care what other people think about me. I am content with who I am, what my interests are and I have no desire to change for anyone other then myself. But hearing Jupiter or Mahoro or other toons speak highly of me, to hear their voices say those words, it would mean so much to me. Pardon my sappiness.

When I watch TV shows or movies, I don't think of cartoons or TV show characters as actors playing characters, I get really involved and think of them as a real person to help get more involved in the movie or show. And as I have gotten more involved in toons, I find myself thinking more and more how that toon would react or respond to meeting me in real life.

Its silly and a total fantasy which I know will never come true and that doesn't bother me in the least. But the thing that matters most is the feeling, the feeling I get when I would picture meeting someone like Belldandy from Ah My goddess or Bunnie Rabbot from the Sonic the hedgehog cartoon and how wonderful it feels to imagine how they would react to me as an individual.

Its that feeling that makes me feel good inside and makes me feel more positive about finding a future mate and feeling better about myself. In a way, the toon girls I crush on give me strength and give me someone to look forward to. Some people idolize athletes, humanitarians, or celebrities but me, I find these toon girls more admirable and idol worthy then anyone I know.