[Tonya]

I go this upcoming Tuesday, Aug 22!. It will be my first time ever, I'm so exited! Like I said on the other board, I'm ready for 9th grade as far as my age, but I feel, and so does my mom, that I'm not quite ready for 9th, so I'll be going into 8th. I'm terrible in math, but that's because mom forgot how to do all of that real high up math that she used to know, so, I'd rather not say on just how behind I am in that. But I am a fast learer, so I'll have it all down in no time. And mom is a nervous reck on EVERYTHING about me going! If I'll get on the right bus, how am I gonna know what to do once I get there, if there's gonna be bullies, ect, ect....She's so, what's the word? Freaked out about me going to school, and my happieness is supressed by a lingering guilt in the pit of my stomache over going, because of her. She acts like I'm going to war or something. I mean, I need a social life. See, she has this anxiety of being around people, plus we live in a drug filled neighborhood, so I could understand her not wanting me out much. She just does't get out, exept to get groceries of coarse, but she herself doesn't even go to visit her friends who have kids I can hang out with. I guess she has no desire to leave the house, or something. I can't wait to hang out with kids my age, I don't think I've ever done tha-well, I don't wanna make her sound bad, I'm not am I? It's just her depression. Uhhh, I'm really sorry that I'm droning on and on about my problams. I feel kinda dumb, I dunno why.